I don't know why you write this article in English, since this website is really for overseas Chinese. Somehow it gives me a feeling that you are trying to tell people that you were so disappointed for can not support your family in Canada, even though your English is quite proudful.
Everywhere is different, so don't complain about what you are facing to presently. I don' t think it is smart enough to go back to China with the following three reasons:
First of all, I believe everyone has the same experience that there are some certain turn overs in your whole life, which the Chinese old saying is EVERYONE'S WHOLE LIFE HAS THREE CHANCES FOR RICH AND THREE CHANCES FOR POOR. Solving problems is one of the mean task for human being. Do you think you will face less difficulties after you go back to China? I doubt it. In my opinion, one problem is for temporary, but solving all kinds of problems will be the life-time job for every body, no matter where you are or how good you are.
Secondly, I believe that self-confidence could make people much stronger, especially the mind. If no Chinese immigrant living in Canada, I will go back to China, too, because I don't think I have any speciality compare with others. One bullet kills him, it does the same to me. But if there is one Chinese immigrant lives in Canada, I will stay, too. I always believe that I could do whatever the others could.
Thirdly, your son is a Canadian now. Don't you want him to go to school in Canada, or you want him to face the same problem after he come back to Canada in the future? Holding a Canadian passport is meaningless, I don't think you will feel great after you realize that you are such a bad example to your own son. Wait until he decide to go back to China for good, then you will know what kind of the mistake you have made today.
We know from years of history that the first generation of immigrants are suffering with cultural shock, pains for being outstage of the local culture and a terrible homesick, but they are sacrificing for the next generation. Don't be so self-centered, or try to find excuses to escape away from the reality. Don't be a cowered guy, please remember the person who write this to you is a quarter-million US annual profit private business owner in Canada, and he was almost a homeless and almost go back to China for good three years ago, just like you now. |